unable to be with the +1 for the current tour in korea has been slightly more difficult than i would like to admit. my rational brain knows that this is just a fraction of time in our long life of togetherness, but it still stings.

*it seems that i have started this blog with all of the negative that i feel and am going thru but i have to say it's not all bad. i am antsy for the +1 to return and 63 days just doesn't seem that short right now.*

anyhoo...i am currently at 2303 patiently waiting for the phone to ring for my goodnight/and +1 midday check-in. it's lunch time in seoul and i pine for that voice saying that "all is okay and goodnight baby i love you have a great day tomorrow." each day i hope that i will get two calls, on that will let me say good morning and have a great day at work, the other to say good night i love you.  when i get 1 or not even a moment it makes the day go slower. that is why i relish the weekends because we can chat until all hours no matter what! the distance makes our bond stronger because we can't just rely on physical touch to keep the passion alive. we have to delve deep into the pool of intellect and emotions. learning more of the +1's vocal cues has been a fun ride; being able to tell of a day full of frustration based off of "hello." hearing the sleep creep in and begin to take my sweet soldier of to dream land and gently whispering "i love you, talk to you tomorrow." i relish these moments. i crave them. but most of all i am thankful for them. it has allowed me to become more imitate and open.

tonight i am missing the +1 more than normal, maybe it's because i began a new job today. i am for the first time a full on duty nanny to a sweet 7 month old girl. the fun i had today the time we shared made my womb ache for a child. coincidentally we discussed that time line just the other night. i am getting on in years and need to actively decide when we are going to start our family. and this next 2 months i believe will help determine that date. i know that we have to have some more stability in our worlds and that we need to put down some roots. i am excited for this small quiz and soon final test.

ring phone ring...i want to tell you of my day.